I say your Love was a gift you gave to me. And I say the joy of
returning that Love is my special gift to you.
When you stepped into my life you touched my heart in ways I will
continue to learn about as time goes on. One thing is certain, my
dear Sabrina. You were unique and one-of-a kind! The loving bond we
created will live on forever in a very special home in my heart.
With the greatest love and affection, as always.
Diana August 2004
LOVE AND LOSS AND
FREEING OF THE SPIRIT
An Essay for those who have lost a beloved pet
It isn’t every day that you find that very
special relationship and experience a very special bond with another
being. Such is the bond I shared with Sabrina, my tortoiseshell cat
for 12 years. Such is the way she entered my Soul and, such is the
feeling of joy as I realize having this bond with an animal is a
wonderful gift only few of us ever have. I know it, and will feel
forever privileged and thankful for the experience.
There are many ways to describe success in our
lives, but I feel the most important question we will ever ask
ourselves is, how did we love. In other words, what risks did we
take, what courage did we show, how much did we open our hearts to
another. Its a scary business because while we experience great joy
we are open to great sorrow when we lose that relationship. Through
our sorrow we learn who we are, we get in touch with our inner
selves and thereby find many of the answers we have sought about our
place in the world.
We know ourselves better for the loss and face
the "new day" with more understanding of who we are. Such is my
For Sabrina I believe the experience is equal.
My feeling is that animals depend on the development of their
Spirits through interactions with their human caregivers. When the
animal is cherished, loved, honored and cared for, the bond between
human and animal is deep. The Spirit grows, matures and now has a
chance to free itself. When the animal dies the Spirit takes wings
and is free to fly to greater heights because the nurturing has
caused the full development and release.
Sabrina had a poor beginning. I know only a
little of her abusive past but the signs were clearly there and
physically she suffered from that abuse in the end. But her Spirit
and her love flourished with me and at her own designated time she
"told " me she was ready to be free and let her Spirit soar.
I am left with the sorrow of her loss, but
also with the image of a Spirit, whole and complete, pristine and
clear with no restrictions in movement or energy...running through a
meadow chasing butterflies, stalking birds, and meeting the Sun
full- face. That visualization brings a measure of comfort that
soothes and nurtures my own Spirit and gives me Peace.